Baboon's Life #4

[zebaboonking]

Anyone wanna help me with timing? T.T.
HSJ works, Kisumai works. Anything works T.T

So I have one more month til I end this semester and head over to the finale.
Of course, I am busy. Every single week there's 3 or 4 submissions.
You may or may not know in architecture, our assignments ain't just "answer 5 questions" that you can finish in one night.
We design, we draw, we calculate, we read, we report, we present...
Overall, I'm still doing fine. I didn't get to sub  but I still manage to help people who sent me pre-timing.
But there's this one subject that is still killing me.
Yes, that subject with THAT tutor. ><

Anyway, I felt my depression returning and I start feeling a little suicidal.
I had this going on and off for the past 3 years already.
This time instead of relying on the university, I went on to talk to the psychiatrist.
I only get to go for the cheaper ones who isn't really a psychiatrist yet.
But, well soon to be.
My mom literally doesn't believe in mental illness, I didn't want my dad to worry.
So I had to fund myself and I'm more or less broke to the extend I'm thinking of selling off my original pokemons T.T
Life goes on, though. Let's see how it goes as this goes on.

I hope you're all doing fine.
I hope you don't have to go through what I'm going through.
If you're sad, or unwell,
I hope I can release something to cheer you up soon.
Take care :)

Comments

[deana-chan.livejournal.com]

Please take care of yourself TT good luck with your studies!

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

[phillineee.livejournal.com]

If only I know how to time, but sadly I don't :( But take care of yourself, and keep thinking happy thoughts ^_^

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

It's okay. thank you :)

[kat-tunfan19.livejournal.com]

I can help u with timing.

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

If i remember correctly, you have an on-goi1ng project with jumpinfinity15 right? ahaa.

[hitomebore87.livejournal.com]

take care of yourself! ive been going thru similar things for years so i know how hard it can be.
also i can help with timing, both hsj and kisumai.

[tesshinator.livejournal.com]

Hi! I have some experience with timing, so if you need help I'll be happy to help you!

[jumpingstorm]

I honestly understand how you feel. But ganbare ~ let's fight life. :D
I can help you with timing anything HSJ if the raw file is lower than 1GB. lols. Please feel free to message me. ^^

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

If i remember correctly, you also sub and have your own projects right? You don't having anything on now?? hahaha. I don't want to delay your project because of me.

[msyami.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I can't really help you out, but if you still need someone after December 14, I can definitely help out. And if you need someone to hear you out and give you a shoulder to cry on, feel free to message me. I'm pretty positive, I don't like when people are sad, and best of all, I'm free! (That came out kinda wrong) But if you need some time off, take it. Go do something new or get a fresh scenery. If the current situation is putting you down, then it's time to check out a different one for a bit.

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

You're a malaysian as well, right? or indo?

[crazyfangirl-46.livejournal.com]

sorry i can't help, but take care ne? dont push yourself too much!! hope you'll feel better~

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much :)

[koenigbuuhuu.livejournal.com]

Thats sad to hear. Hope, that your life will be soon better again and that it will be more enjoyable. ;)
I do know and understand some parts too. The mental one is also important in life. And can be sometings really troubling or lends to the negative way/feelings. I had that recent too. I must-have move to my new appartment (leave my old one, because the next tenant was already going to move in there), but there was still so much to do. That I thought "it will be impossible" to move all the things and emtying the old appartment in time. The last weeks were really hard for me. So much stress, still a lot to do, friends who couldn´t help me, the approaching deadline was comming nearer and nearer and that I won´t be able to finish all of it. I´m really glad that its over now, that I managed it (with a lot great help of my parents and help of only a few friends) and in time.

Thank you that you´ll (want to) continue to sub videos although you´ve not so much time and aren´t doing so well at the moment.

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there are times there are way too much to do, I just decided to sleep. and I will hate myself for that later ahaha. And of course I will continue to sub video, I feel like it's my only use in this world ahah.

[cecevy.livejournal.com]

take care of yourself ne!
If it just timing I can help you :)
actually I'm timing buzzrhythm hsj 2016.10.28 right now, so it'll be great if you want to translate it :)

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

That will be great!! I wanted to do it but i cant find the raw file T.T

[amatineeyah.livejournal.com]

Hi, sorry that I can't help with the timing but I just want to say you should cheer up :) Actually, I'm also feeling the same way as you do, the remaining 1 month of this semester is killing me and there's also that 1 subject that I hate so much :'( I hope we can get through this soon, keep fighting! Gambare~

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Though I'm not really that stressed out bout uni only though. It busy but its not something I cannot take xP. Good luck to you too! ahaha

[mysteriousgal11.livejournal.com]

Hi :) Just browsing my feed and saw your post.

I'm diagnosed with anxiety and depression and had frequent attacks. I have a high dosage of medicines especially the past month and weeks since I'm on my limit already. Sometimes I take a day off my schedule, or even just hours to relax.. to clear my brain for a while. I'm a medicine student and just like you, I've been experiencing hell in studies.

Maybe sweets can help you also, it somehow did the magic to me. :)

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Aww take care of yourself too. I'm really glad i have great friends willing to help me out in uni though, they really do go out of the way. If not i'll probably be way too stressed out.

[songyukkie.livejournal.com]

Hello,
I'm sorry to hear about you. i've been through a lot like you before (around 2-3 years) I stopped going to college without my parents knowing. Of couse there are a LOT of to worry about, i keep blaming everyone around me (specially my parents). I searched for reasons to blame everyone but me. Even i knew it's wrong but i feel safer that way.
I keep on thinking how to back on track but it's so hard when you're having a negative thought, bad days, and pressure.
And i think it happen to everyone, what i suggest you to do is travelling (find times, don't think of anything else. Just set somewhere far yet close enough in your country) I suggest you go alone or with 1 friend.
It'll help you a lot, just trust me. 2 years of my bad years go away after travelling for 2 weeks (i went to the national parks and trekking)
I found my self confidence again, and coming to college again now. And i'm doing fine (although i need to keep up my lost, hehe)
I hope you'll get well soon!!

much love,
theta

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

I've been skipping some classes as well. I'm the kind who indulge myself in self-hate, that probably just made everything a whole lot worse for me ahaha.

[mochislayer.livejournal.com]

Take care, be strong and good luck on studies!

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[prettytin]

if only i know how to time, i would volunteer.

have a great month :)

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

It's finee. Thank you.

[amivie.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that I can't help you.
But I hope that with the help that you get it will help you through the depression that you are having.
If you like someone to talk to, you can always message me.
Fighting dear!!

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. It's okay if you couldn't help though ahaha.

[surtika.livejournal.com]

Oh, my. ..what a tough life you do have there. Hope you'll always be strong enough not to go to the wrong path. Hehe.
Actually, I would love to help you. However, I have never done anything related to subbing, so I do not even know what to do. Gomen nee. (/\)

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

No problem :) Thank you so much :)

[yeppeokeiinoo.livejournal.com]

hi! i just want u to know that if u need someone to talk to, just send me a message :) I know you're doing what you can and I believe in you :)

I'd want to help u but i have zero subbing experience at all :(

Good luck with school!! がんばって！ファイト！o(^▽^)o

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

thank you :) the fact someone believe in me is really comforting :)

[nyyyss.livejournal.com]

aww i would love to help! but i dont know how to do it really :'(
if u dont mind of teaching me then i can help you for the project that u r doing and also the upcoming ones >.<

anyway, dont worry about the sub for now, please take care of yourself!! ((virtual hug))

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much :)

[natsunishi.livejournal.com]

ugh, my family is pretty much the same, so i totally understand how you feel. :( but stay strong! you can get over it! i believe in you! ♥

also, i could help you with timing, if you still need help :3

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

I'm flooded with projects now it's so cool. You're a kisumai fan right?
I'mm trying to catch up with kisumaireji I'll be glad if you can help me with episode 4, or kisumai game if you prefer ahaha.

[hoshi4.livejournal.com]

Hi !
I've felt depression and feeling suicidal too before. And it still return sometimes. Just know you're not alone :)
Life is so hard yeah :(
As Yui-san said "kantan ni ikanai kara ikete yukeru" . Ganbarou !
Jibun ni makenai you ni ><
And anyway, I think I can help you with the timing. ^^

[zebaboonking.livejournal.com]

Yea, I'll do my best ><
HAHAHA so many people offered me help with timing i'm flooded with projects now. It's cool haha. Thank you so much though :).